Last post was back in February, it is now April. I think I’m doing okay, mentally wise. I did see a therapist. For only one time, though. It felt and still feels as though they’re wasting their resources on me. But that’s okay. I’m getting by.
Found a bunch of music that is really love, rediscovering songs that I hadn’t listened to in months and years.
Also still very obsessed with John Marston and Red Dead Redemption. Also obsessed with the Dishonored series and Corvosider.
Because I’d be a fool not to see the relationship that grows between Corvo Attano and The Outsider in both Dishonored and Dishonored 2. And at the ending of Death Of The Outsider, the happy ending is where Billie Lurk takes The Outsider to Dunwall so the Outsider can be with Corvo and just have his happy ending with the man he loves.
I am writing again, finding a bunch of writing prompts on instagram and on tumblr. Just need to get motivated to type it up. And to finish a story that I started in the summer of 2016 ><
I’m still alive. Finally went to see a doctor and now on medication. I’ll be seeing a therapist next week.
So I’m obsessed with Adele’s song “Hello” and can totally picture this song being perfect for Yonekuni and Shirou. It has the potential for so much angst between the two.
Still obsessed with John Marston. With Red Dead Redemption coming out in the spring of 2018, I feel like I’m sitting on the edge of my seat. Then there’s The Evil Within 2 and I hope Joseph Oda is in it again, if only for my reassurance that he gets rescued. He wasn’t at the end of the first game 😦
When you becime the reason all the bad things happen and you just want to give up forever 😦
When you feel like your mask is about to crack and you’re scrambling to keep it ptached up.
I wish I wasn’t such a failure. The things I don’t fail at aren’t important. But the things i do fail at are big.
My sister tells me my niece looks up to me. and all I can think about is why. Why does she look up to me? I’m no one special. Just someone who can’t do things right.