When you feel like your mask is about to crack and you’re scrambling to keep it ptached up.
Why is it when I think I’m helping, I’m just screwing everything up. Just shows that another thing I fail at trying.
The music from Moana makes me cry so much. Such beautiful songs and sung so well, but damn does it make me bawl something fierce.
So things have been going pretty well. My sister and her family came to visit. It was fun, though it felt both short and long. And I miss them already. My sister (somewhat) offered me a place to stay. Said she’d help me get a job and get me back on track to losing weight. I want to take her up on her offer, I really do. But I’m afraid.
I’m afraid that if I do leave, what will happen to my mom? I feel that she’d get lonely, even if she has my dad.
I’d have to leave my animals behind, unless she allows me to bring them.
Started working the summer program, only pulling 21 hours a week for 3 weeks. Let’s see if I get paid or if the check (however small) will go to benefits and taxes 😦
I think I need to take a break from instagram. My feelings of not measuring up are rising. Should just focus on other things 😦
Finally caved and got myself a kindle fire hd 8, came in this morning. It’s gonna take me a while to get used to it since I’ve been using just my phone and that’s an android.
This is my phone.
This is my kindle, I ended up using the same image because I’m still so obsessed with John Marston and would love to find the artist of the image as it would be an awesome print.